ULISES

A little story I'd like to share with you guys that's VERY personal. When I was 15/16 years old, I felt very alone and like no one understood me. I felt out of place and didn't exactly know what life was about and why I was placed on this Earth in this body, precisely being this person at this life time. I had endured a lot of criticism in my early childhood years for just being me. Kids can be brutal. It was as if the whole world knew something of me to which I was completely unaware. I never understood what was wrong and why I was any different from the rest. Needless to say, all this was rather confusing and mind boggling while growing up. Reality started to dawn on me during my pubescent years. I wanted to just escape and put an end to it all and suicide seemed to be a rather convincing, soothing friend at the time. I didn't want to bring shame on my family and disappoint them; I felt that I wouldn't be able to face my family, my world, and truly, be happy. How could I? Plus, I was the eldest son to this first generation American family I was born into. My siblings looked up to me; my parents demanded the best of me at all times. I just didn't understand it- this country, this world, this life- AT ALL. Therefore, I went for it. First time- overdosed on pills. Second, tried to chemically intoxicate myself. Third- overdosed again. I felt like no one understood me. My strict, Catholic family surely didn't, and I didn't feel as if I belonged; I quietly felt like the black sheep of the family although everyone thought everything was perfect. I did amazing in school, was very quiet, and gave no one any problems, so therefore, no one had no reason to suspect of this tumultuous storm I was weathering on my own. Plus, I had become an expert at hiding my emotions. To make a long story short, I was able to evade death and see the brighter side of life thanks to my best friend and God; it's as if I wasn't meant to die just yet. So now that I'm sitting here on this cold November watching the Christmas lights on the Christmas tree flicker on and off, reflecting back at this critical point in my life, I understand everything. All of these experiences have shaped me to be the person that I am now. I am bold, fearless, and honest and am now able to acknowledge that there was never anything wrong with me; I was born exactly the way I was meant to be. Suicide is NEVER the answer. I don't believe in coincidences and this definitely wasn't one of them. It just wasn't my time to go... I had unfinished business I had signed up to do.

As life progressed, I was able to find out that there was something special to me. I wasn't like a lot of the people that just went with the flow, living in ignorance pretending everything was fine. I had always had a different way of viewing life; I was just a bit different in so many ways and this was just the tip of the ice berg. A few years back, I came to the realization that I had been placed on this Earth for a reason much "Larger than Life" if you will. I had a task to complete that hadn't been completed yet. No life is here by mistake; there's always a reason. I officially came out to my parents when I was 20 years old. What I was mostly afraid of was losing there love. Fortunately, they proved me wrong; they have loved me regardless although it wasn't easy at first. My mom came around rather quick, but my dad was the one who took it the worst. Nonetheless, they both eventually came around and I can truly say that I feel blessed and thankful for having the supportive and loving family that I've always had. Today, I felt it deep within my heart that I should share this side of me with you especially if I plan on being the honest artist I intend to be; I don't support lies. If I were to die tomorrow, I know I'd lived a sincere, hard-working life where I tried to share as much love and positivity with the world. No regrets. I just don't want to continue neglecting something that plays such an important role in my life, in my music. I want to be able to show you the true artist- ULISES - in all my works particularly the one I've begun working on. My goal is to make this new album ("The Discovery of the Sesliu Galaxy") one of my best works yet and this is one step I had to take in order to help ensure that. A lot of what you see on TV is false. TRUST ME- Hollywood is a big lie... a lot of these guys, women, and couples, live a completely different life outside the limelight. I don't want to be another one of these puppets who lives a lie for the sole purpose of entertaining and playing an oblivious audience in return for cash and fame. The music industry is no exception; a lot of rappers/singers are still in closet and last time I checked, closets were for clothes. Ultimately, I'd like to be life-changing, historical, and memorable; that's my goal. There's an ugly reality in life and sometimes people just don't want to face it. Needless to say, I feel privileged to be who I am. I feel like a medium between the female and the male species. I could understand things "straight" males can't and could understand what women wish men could (like emotions, color, etc...) Haha. And ladies... you can always try. I'm not opposed to you at all. =P I'm a big flirt. You will love me regardless. =P For those that were unsure... well now u know. Artistically- I want to be like a Ricky Martin/ Adam Lambert/ Liberace/ Salvador Dali. I got absolutely nothing to hide; honesty is my virtue. I'm gonna keep pushing forward and working hard. My family and real friends love and support me 100%. Hope I count with your love and support. =) Enough with the old news... Now that I officially got that out of the way... let the art continue.